The Start

This is my first post on this brand new blog. I’m still not sure why I created it, or what I want it to be.

Writing in this way takes a lot of effort from me, to be quite honest. I’m used to writing with a purpose, like for work, where every word matters, brevity matters, every thought must be coherent and supportable. This feels unwieldy, clumsy, kind of aimless. I don’t have a voice yet, and I don’t really have any sort of coherent message planned out. I’m even using the same words over and over again, like I’m in some sort of panic. I get like this when I write for fun; I don’t know why.

Like I said, I don’t know what I want this to be. I’ve been on a wellness and purpose kick lately (maybe those are two separate kicks). From a wellness standpoint, I’m enamored by the concepts of mindfulness, meditation, stoicism, daily routines, and habits for an optimal life, especially those in the fitness realm. In terms of purpose…well, I’m still trying to figure out my own. That’s the whole goal right now, to find something that’s meaningful, that adds value to my own life and to others, something that doesn’t cause my stomach to get all churny and knotty when I think about it.

This is a start, I guess. It’s not quite “my” voice, but it’ll do for now, at least until I find my own style. It sounds fake, even when I’m reading it to myself right now in the little WordPress editor that I’m typing in. Not enough rawness, not enough self-critique. If I’m ever to actually be authentic on this thing, more of those two things needs to be in there, for better or for worse, cuz that’s me.

So here’s Post 1. No substance, just random thoughts. I really hope this shit gets better from here.